Proud Bitch Like Me

I have always been a BIG flirt who live for the buzz of romance. Pathetic, Lame, and Shallow as it may be, but that is me. People confronted me, lashed me out with such strong words like flirt, slut, bitch, relationship wrecker and a whole lot nasty words, and surprisingly, I love them!

Calling me those names won't make me cry. So I am a bitch, what's your problem then?

When I stand up for myself and for what I believe in, you call me bitch.

When I smile and flaunt my hair, you call me bitch.

When I tried to talk to you even though you have a girlfriend, you call me bitch.

When I stand up for the people I love, you call me bitch.

I just don't care. And believe me, when I uttered those words, I do really don't care.

Life is a bitch anyway, and so am I.

Just like one Ube cake. ( :

Breaking up is hard to do. Yes, that was what Paul Anka said in his 1970’s hit. Who says breaking up is always easy?No matter who initiated or planned the break-up, both parties still face the same hurt or pain, maybe they will only differ in the degree of pain, but still breaking up is NEVER a piece of cake.

But, what is wrong after a break up? The immediate effect of the break-up is pain. The pain goes away slowly over a number of years, but the initial impact is high. It is the initial period during which one has to gather all the energy and tolerate the pain.So is it the moving on process? Yes, it is. I don’t know how men deal with break up, but i believe most of them are stoic in nature so I will speak on behalf of the women society.:)

I believe that every women is entitled to grieve after a break up. Give your self the agony of crying for like three days? Cry your heart out. Engage in catharsis. Create suicidal ideations. Mode yourself in an i-will-never-ever-stop-loving-you crap. Call your ex and beg him to stay. Shout in front of your friends how in love you are still with him. Be an anorexic b*tch. Stalk his friendster/multiply/facebook. Go bar hopping and pretend you are okay, until in the middle of the night when the alcohol starts getting on your nerves and you started calling his name. But as I said, the normal range for that stupidity is within 3 days, okay?

What is wrong with us girls? If the guy told you that there is no point of getting back together, then I beg you girls, believe him! Guys would not be man enough for saying that to you. Guys are firm and definite in nature. Start moving on, stop stalking him. Stop fussing over his new girl. You were once that girl, he dumped someone just to have you. Yes, its a cycle on every guy’s pathetic life.

I won’t be a hypocrite claiming that I moved on right after the break up, it was like an everyday challenge of survival. I have to battle missing him because I know I shouldn’t think of him anymore. I undergo Ross’ DABDA process, but I never went on anger. Never did I blamed the guy, nor be mad to his new girl.I was passive. I embraced all the hurt I have to endure.

So that was me every after break up, but where I am now? Though I love attracting failed relationship, I know I am better. I have learned a lot.:)