Monday, January 31, 2011

To my non-negotiable love crush.

“I love you. And not in a friendly way, although I think we’re great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I’m sure that’s what you’ll call it. And it’s not because you’re unattainable. I love you. Very simple, very truly. I know you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you’d ever consider. This may sound like a cliche, but I've never felt anything like this before. I am aware that the chances of you liking me is slim, you are endlessly charming and funny, while I am a pathetic bore. You are handsomely beautiful, while I am an average face. You are a constant enigma, while I am an everyday mundane. I'm sorry if you think I am now crossing the line, I just can't take this anymore. I have to let this out in the open, because it sucks to sleep at night knowing that there are still people like you. And if bringing it to light means we can’t hang out anymore, then that hurts me. But I couldn’t allow another day to go by without getting it out there, regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is the inevitable shoot-down. And I’ll accept that. But I know some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, that means you feel something too. All I ask is that you not dismiss that-atleast not for ten seconds-and try to dwell it in.

And if you have finally find in your heart, that you also feel the same way, then I'm gonna love you the best. Like what Elizabeth Gilbert had said, "

If I love you, I will carry for you all your pain, I will assume for you all your debts, I will protect you from your own insecurity,I will buy Christmas presents for your entire family. I will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, I will give you a sun check and a rain check. I will give you all this and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover my energy is by becoming infatuated with someone else."


But the only difference between me and Elizabeth Gilbert, If I get exhausted, I will never cease on loving you. You will be non-negotiable till the end. Its you or no one.